Day 2 of HAWMC 2012: Find a quote that inspires you (either positively or negatively) and free write about it for 15 minutes.
I must confess that I spent most of my 15 minutes trying to decide what quote I was going to write about today. I finally settled on some wisdom from one of my favorite tv series: Star Trek TNG:
It is possible to commit no errors and still lose. That is not a weakness. That is life.
-Captain Picard to Data, Star Trek: The Next Generation, “Peak Performance”
Since I was diagnosed as a teen I have worked very hard to take care of myself and try to minimize the effects of lupus on my health. In the early years, I made many rebellious decisions, such as flushing my medicine down the toilet, sunbathing on the beach, and not getting enough rest. As you may suspect, this triggered lupus flares and I became very, very sick.
Other times, things would happen that were outside of my control that would also trigger flares, like getting caught in the rain, sitting in cold classrooms, or experiencing really stressful events.
What all of these things have in common is that I could see (or at least figure out) the connection between the event and the lupus flare. What has been much harder to deal with is the randomness of lupus flares that are both out of my hands and have no apparent rhyme or reason.
What I take from the Star Trek quote is that sometimes bad things happen that are not your fault. You could do everything that your doctor suggests and still have a flare. That is life and that is lupus.